"Father was a kindly
man. I cannot remember his ever hurting me by hand, deed or word, except that
often, in fact most of the times that have stuck in memory, I had to work when
other kids had time to play. Work and study were always the order of the day.
I suspect father was never hungry for long nor was he ill-housed or
ill-clothed to the point of personal discomfort. But I am convinced that life
was hard, very hard, measured by self-denial, work and disappointments. His
school education was limited but his learning was supreme. He was a student, a
philosopher and a saint. His acumen in measuring people, situations and
business matters was of a high order. He had high regard for educated people
and encouraged his children to strive for an education. I recall how
disappointed he was when I announced that I loved farming and had decided to
make it my vocation in life. Only one of my brothers who preceded me, Horace,
had chosen a professional career and even he pursued agriculture with some
intensity as a side line and, perhaps, became the largest landowner and farm
operator of us all.
"I do not know much
about father's health in the early part of his life. Up to almost the end of
his days he could endure a 16- or 18-hour day of strenuous work, six days a
week. A day off was a very rare thing for him except, perhaps, in the
wintertime.
"Father filled a
mission for the Church under great tribulation which mother shared at home in
unmitigated detail. As he left for the mission field, April 9, 1883, mother
was three months pregnant with the fourth child. Brigham, the eldest, was
5-1/2 years of age; Ira was 3-1/2; and Horace was 1-1/2. Mark was born 6
months after father's departure for Tennessee. Father's journal tells of his
ill health and afflictions while in the mission field. It was, no doubt,
distressing to him and to the family at home to know that the spirit of
mobocracy was still abounding in the eastern, central, and southern parts of
the United States and that many Mormon missionaries were sorely dealt with at
the hands of vile men, which, in the case of some, resulted in their being
murdered.
"Mother was left with a
small farm, some chickens, a pig, and three cows to milk and care for. It was
from these that she gathered much of her meager living. Summer and winter she
milked the cows, made butter and sold it and gathered from the land as much as
possible of the things required to feed herself and children. Her outside work
had to be carried on with the six-year-old, Brigham, caring for his baby
brothers. His dependability in this vital assignment earned for him the
plaudits of the entire family to the end of his days.
"Father's daily journal
is available for one year of this period. During most of the time he suffered
from "Yellow Fever," which reduced his resistance to other
afflictions. As a result, his eyesight and his hearing deteriorated greatly in
the mission field. Never afterward was his hearing near par and in his late
forties there followed a period of almost complete deafness after he suffered
a long illness from exposure and severe cold. For the remainder of his days he
could hear only when those seeking to communicate with him spoke very loud.
His vision improved and he was an avid reader. He had a splendid memory and
had committed to memory a vast array of scripture, choice poems, Church songs
and general information.
"Father attributed his
hearing difficulties to the compounding of a family weakness through the
intermarriage of cousins, his father and mother. This inherited hearing
handicap has shown up in children, reaching down now to the fourth generation.
"Because of this
hearing problem father took special delight in spending long evenings, and in
his later years, many daytime hours talking to people who would speak loud
enough for him to readily understand a running conversation. His two brothers,
Moses and Enock, mother's brother, Amos Cook, and his old friend Israel Call,
were especially choice company for him.
"I suspect few people
with such a handicap ever made more effort to avoid troubling other people
because his situation required special effort for others to converse with him.
He also avoided, when in areas where loud speaking would be distracting to
others, reasons to communicate. Father obtained, when different devices became
available, such aids as would decrease the necessity of loud speaking by
gathering and funneling more sound waves into the ear. The only one that
seemed to really be serviceable was a pliable tube one inch in diameter, about
three or four feet long with a device on one end that covered his ear and one
the other end a sort of mouthpiece similar to the one on an old-fashioned
telephone.
"Father liked to talk
about Gospel subjects and was always able to support his position by chapter
and verse from memory from the Standard Works and from the Prophets.
"His handicap severely
limited him in filling the niches in life in the years of his greatest
strength which would otherwise have been open and beckoning to him. He, of
course, missed many of the choicer things that normal people can constantly
enjoy such as music, the theatre and even the little delightful jabbering
common in the home, especially where small children are frequently uttering
things so cheering to the ears of their parents. Then, also, there were those
unpleasant experiences where an exasperated wife or child thought she got her
request, directive or view over only to find the desired response not
forthcoming. All too often the inference was made that there was a lack of
interest or downright disregard which was sometimes accompanied by unpleasant
words or hurt feelings, so often attaching to lack of interest or a don't-care
attitude. It is sad that my father could not have had a hearing device as are
available these days. Although these, too, are often inadequate. Had this been
possible his usefulness to others and his joys could have been enhanced and
multiplied.
"Few men give so much
of understanding and of self to their children as did my father. I do hope our
responses were compensating to him. Often I heard him say that 'the youth of
my generation were superior to those of his own time: that they were more
obedient to parents, that they better observed the standards of good conduct
and of moral behaviour, and they were better trained and better equipped to
serve mankind.' He extended these views and resulting reactions to his
daughters-in-law and to his only son-in-law. Grandchildren also felt this
radiation of good will and approval. I doubt that any of his in-laws ever had
cause to be hurt or even downcast because of any word or deed that emanated
from him. I, of course, hope this is a family trait.
"It seems from this distance in time, particularly to those of less
faith, to know of the sacrifices and hardships that a mission imposed would
turn one away forever from a willingness to accept any such call again for
self or loved ones. Not so. As soon as the oldest son, Brigham, was matured,
the aspirations of father and of mother were such that a mission was the
choicest of causes for him to pursue. Four other of the boys followed in
Brigham's footsteps.
"My father had some
very unique ways of instructing his children. Casting responsibility upon them
was one of the most impressive and best remembered.
"When a very small boy
he would hand me his wallet and send me to buy some trifling item. The purse
might contain a hundred times as much money as was needed to make the
purchase. He never looked in it before he gave it to me or examined it, in my
presence, when returned. The sense of pride and of responsibility that I felt
on such occasions was almost more weighty than in later years when the
legislature gave me a hundred million dollars to spend on the programs of the
Department of Social Services.
"He used to tell that
on one occasion when a widow in the neighborhood lost her cow, which was an
important thing as it related to the family food supply, he and others decided
to raise the money to buy another for her. As they went from door to door
telling the story of the widow's loss, always they received a solicitous
response --'I am sorry-- that is too bad.' 'What will her family do?' and the
like. They finally came to a man who said, 'That is tough for them, I am sorry
ten dollars.' Others measured their sorrow in self-sacrifice and a replacement
was purchased. He wanted us to know that the expression of sorrow often
requires more than words.
"One of the stories of
family interest that persisted in my memory grew out of an incident that
occurred, so it was told, when the family membership at home was approaching
the peak. As I heard, father learned that an acquaintance of his, a cattleman,
who lived some 12 miles away, had just received the top national award for a
bull displayed at the Chicago Livestock Show. It was decided that the family
should have an outing and the entire group would go see this prize animal. Father
obtained a vehicle large enough to accommodate all of the children, lunch was
packed, and they were on their way.
"Upon arrival at the
stockman's spread they soon learned that the owner had a fixed price of 50
cents a person for everyone regardless of age, who was permitted to view this
beautiful animal. Father did not have, or could not spare the $4.50, so gloom
settled over the family. There was some grass and much shade about and father
asked if they could get under a tree and eat lunch. The owner continued to
observe the family. As he saw mother, who was noticeably pregnant, giving
attention to each of the children, and each of the older boys looking after
the smaller ones, his heart was touched. He came over and said: 'Brig, are all
these kids your'n?' When father answered yes, he said, 'Look, you just take my
$5 and come in the shed, I want my bull to see you.'
"After my marriage, my
younger brother, Clifford, took my place that year in selling the produce on
the Salt Lake market. In the fall of 1919 father sold the old homesite to my
brother, David, whereupon he purchased a modern home on West Center Street in
Bountiful City where he and mother lived until his passing, February 14, 1923.
Mother continued to dwell in this home until her passing, May 22, 1932.
"Severe prostate
trouble afflicted father in the latter years of his life. Modern surgery in
this area of human ailments had not developed at that time, so he came to the
end of his life in great distress and suffering.
"He had arranged for my
brothers, Brigham and Ira, and myself to take care of mother and of his
estate. Everything was kept in good order and when mother passed away, nine
years later, a distribution of available resources was effected with one-tenth
going to each of us. No question was raised by either of the children that was
not resolved to the complete satisfaction of each. The care of mother to the
end of her days and the parceling out of the family holdings did not disturb
in any way the love for each other that was always solid and untarnished in
the home of our parents."